I know what you mean by feeling like an outsider. I first heard the Name ,Yeshua, when I was very young on shortwave radio on the Jewish Voice Broadcast. There was no Messianic Movement then & no one else of my beliefs. I prayed for many years before moving to the place where that program originated, & became friends with one of their former spokes persons. There is still no fellowships in our city now, that I live in. But my beliefs never changed. When I first heard that Name, I didn't need another.
Thank you, Sharon.
John 3:16 is embedded in my memory from being taught by my grandmother when I was little. And my grandma's sister, my great aunt, taught me Ps 23. They were great ladies who really were my only real contact with my Father and my Brother.